Monsieur L-B performed at the annual hotdog day pool party. During the summer, there is a poolside celebration every month and attendees range from infants to seniors. This year, I met a very interesting elderly lady who was born in the French Concession in Shanghai. She had even attended The Cunning Little Vixen opera that I had been to the week before. Summer poolside is a great place to meet the neighbours and to build connections for the winter.
|The hollyhocks are blooming!|
The second meeting of the book club is on Tuesday and I am wondering about our membership. Some of the elderly members seemed a little confused. I'm not sure that they will have read and understood the novel Book of Secrets by M.G. Vassanji. Oh well, I am not their teacher and there will be cookies and lemonade.
|One of the book club ladies tends a lovely garden area.|
I am releasing the orange and brown items of clothing that I have amassed over the years. I am no longer red haired so those colours just don't work. I am still following The Vivienne Files and I am coming to love my new colours. HOWEVER, I am not rushing out to buy a complete new wardrobe as I am not rich and my new grey and blue items will certainly carry me through the summer. I am repeating my outfits more often but that's okay. There is a tendency on my part to want to fill the vacuum immediately.
It's difficult to let go of things that don't work any more:wardrobes, relationships, beliefs…… But that journey really does begin with the first step. I had my physical this week and I'd really like to let go of obesity. I feel so badly that I dislike photos of myself and consequently I can't show off my new look on my blog. I feel that some of my husband's lack of interest may stem from this additional weight but it is a vicious circle that ends only in sadness.
|I am getting to like grey and blue.|
I have been more involved with teaching again and met this week with a former colleague to discuss languages and travel adventures. Monsieur made a remark about the books that I was carrying as I headed off to my French conversation session. Books and learning are part of my identity that still work for me. I know in my heart, that whatever path I take, these elements are essential. I would enjoy taking a summer course and I might even consider a writing course at the University. New people, skills and ideas tend to lift the grey clouds that have surrounded me since I arrived home.
I contacted two interesting former colleagues to talk about travel and culture.
I attended a meditation class.
I scattered my father's ashes.
I entertained two of the women that my husband performs with.
I visited with my friend from prenatal classes (39 years ago).
I shall attend a meditation class.
I shall attend Weight Watchers.
I shall begin to teach another student.
I will enroll in a week-long writing course.
How do we get the confidence to make changes in our lives? I think that it is by building on previous successes. There is no magic wand only small determined steps.